I found myself using Google in order to try to find emotions, throwing in phrases fitting of the moment to scoop up what sticks to queries like "hate everything sometimes" or "love like this".
I don't find what I'm looking for usually. Maybe there's a database pooling poetic somethings and nothings that I can cast my net in that I don't know about.
I find myself missing an old lover lately. Even if it means missing the hard times as well as the grand times. I'm not sure what this means or can mean, but either way, it is very heavy on my heart and thick in my thoughts.